Puzzle of a peculiar girl.

2010-06-13T18:53:00.000-07:00

feedmeowie.tumblr.com in the making :)
have a nice day you!

2010-05-13T01:45:00.000-07:00

just stop right here, or watch me disappear.
x

2010-04-29T20:42:00.000-07:00

Laybee's activities:
infinite amount of movies and counting
sky gardern
breakfast
lunch
dinner
webcam
sprees
window shopping
faux eye lashes
petshop
frolicks
ben n jerry's

Neyo's activities:
movies
demsey
webcam
edwin's bday celebration
family outing
daiso
petshop
carshopping
cousin's birthday
mrt from tampines to boonlay
roadtrips
ljs breakfast
mamaneo's lunch
mamaneo's dinna
mini celebration for achieving his honours degree (gogogo double masters!)

things like that totally makes it more worth while.

"with that little inhibition i had left in me, i bit my own lip, withdraw from an argumentative stance in every conversation, n let the residues of conflict be washed away. i will not be involved in any kind, i had enough."

PICTOAHS:

2010-04-14T15:50:00.000-07:00

There u go baby! :)

IM BACK FROM LAYBEE'S AND I CAN PARTICIPATE IN THE BIGLOSER SOON, CAN U IMAGINE? OK PLS DONT. MISS ONG LAY PLS PLS STOP STUFFING MY FACE, IM GONNA EVOLVE INTO SOMETHING SERIOUSLY SOON, BUT U KNW U MEAN THE WORLD TO ME, WAITED FOR ME IN THE SALON WITHOUT COMPLAINTS, TOOK CARE OF MY EVERYDAY MEALS, DYED MY HAIR, GAVE ME A PRINCESSY BED TO CRASH ON, O BTW HELP ME THANK LIXIAN EHHEHE I JUS CANT PUT EVERYTHING IN WORDS HEHEHEHE BUT ILY! I BAN U FROM FEEDING ME AH AH AHHHHHHHHHHHH?! N MY DEAREST NEYO HOW U'D LIKE MY SNOOPY OUTFIT?! HEHEHEHE DENIM FTW :) OK I TYPE LIKE A NERD BUT IM TOO EXCITED N LEAVING IN A MINUTE SO, THANKS.

2010-04-11T17:22:00.001-07:00

birthday parties, shopping sprees, 3 day sleepovers, past memories, for each other, till the end… this explains, my best friend ^^^^^

bee
-gone-

and my poor baby..

jia you, ill always be at one of the screenies watching over u :)

2010-04-09T20:04:00.000-07:00

ive been for you.

dont injure ur mouth trying to show me
where uve been, ive seen everything.
i get tired of standing on the outside
watching the show, tired of all the useless conversation
u know how the boys like their little ladies?
they like them silent, dead, dead quiet

everybody lies but let's be happy
lets be gorgeous, pink and skimpy
lets be famous, happy, and obnoxious
thick and skinny, rich and famous

2010-04-02T17:38:00.000-07:00

"if you find me and hide me, i don't know where ive been"

First, Laybee's party was a total success :):)xoxo^^^^
baby made a humongous box for her balloons, it took him 3 hours and he gave up his entire work materials for this, thank you! (:
I wish i have the before and after pictures of the hotel it was kickass, and to my lovely laybee :) hope u enjoyed yrself although its nothing fancy or posh, i just wan the best for u(u shld knw wad im toking abt), ytd u were complaining about my RIP blog, so here u go ^^
OK picturesdamnalotlazytoupload.

two: am not the type of girl who open her heart easy, so pour some sugar on me.

three: just praying that she goes through this unscathed.
though difficult, its possible.

2010-02-25T16:48:00.000-08:00

Look what i found?
Notepad that tags..

"2007"

I think myself as an open person. id pretty much talk to anyone, if your not intimidating. basically i talk to everyone. right now i'm trying to be my best, and ive learnt that a lot of things that had happened to hurt me are because of my own choices. im not a mean person, im actually kind of a push over. My childhood is one of my favorite thing, i love the close relationships i share with everyone there. i owe alot to the people who lift me high up. i have a incredible family who lifts me higher then anything on earth, they are worth everything. i love the color green its got to be the new black, it makes me happy. i insist on a lot of things, like my birthday being every month. Making people order for me because i have a phobia of it, i hate being late, i hate being early. i love meeting new people, but im scared of being thought of as lame. im a ninja, every second of the day. im not good at any one thing, and i think thats the one thing that really bothers me most. i want to be a doctor, i want to own a sloth. i want to buy the whole galaxy. But really the one thing i wanna do is be happy.

"2008"

i have secrets and trust no one. the perfect example of betrayal. Cos everyone
i trusted.. broke me. a temporary feeling to a permanent emotion, a girl with a problem of addiction and a love of nothing but tension, running makes me hyper, so does chocolate and icecream. i can talk on the phone while sleeping. my favorite number is 23, the needle in my arm is full of passion and dreams, full of revenge, and blinded by love, a million ways to be cruel, a wishful thinker, and an emotional fool, i want what i cant have, but cant is just an imagination, i dream of being better, i tear myself down with worry, and talk myself up in hopes i don’t take the risk if i can’t cope, i am everything you want, and nothing that you need, full of jealousy, and ravaged by greed, i have the perfect scars that tell the perfect story, i live each day with newfound glory, i always come close, but i never come easy, i am not what you think, but i am me

right now..
I want to be an accountant some day. I dont go to school, but i do take a home study course on business management, and am doing really well. i feel that this is my calling in life, everything im not make everything i m. i have a boyfriend who's gonna be an architect, im so proud of him and all his work, he's sweet, funny, sensitive and uber talented, i do not know why he loves me so much but maybe thats becos i love him as much :) Of cos not forgetting my pack of girlfriends haha! Laybee, meiting, jiarui, huishan and hopefully more to come?
"Its sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now, you can barely even look at them."

2010-02-03T20:03:00.001-08:00

heartshapeeeeeeeeeeeeee

its me disturbing neyo again.

Pls donate me ur face.

furry santa.

rabbit wannabe.

yellowbeakfluffybutt, im sorry i ate ur fren recently, ill never do tht to u i promise.

NEYO IS MY PAPA.. PAPA..RAZZI?

i am one of the presents, neyo picked me *brink brink* :D

HEY HEY HEY LAYLAYLAY will be meeting me laterS? HAHAHA

HAPPY BDAY HUISHAN! THIS IS FOR U LOL!
OK NO MORE WALAO COS IM OVERWEIGHT NOW NO PICTURES K NO MORE.
WISHING U A FAT LUNAR NEW YR! EAT MORE EVERYONE GOOD NIGHT.

2010-01-12T20:44:00.000-08:00

HELLO?
hello....hello....hello.....hello....
o...o....o...
WASSUP 2010?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO SORRY FOR DESERTING U MY DEAR COCOMI.BLOGSPOT, IM SO DISORGANIZED RIGHT NOW,
I WAS SICK FOR APPROX 8 DAYS?!! AM FEELING LIKE A TOTAL BITCH I WANNA REST I WANNA JUST SLEEP MY DAYS AWAY. Y? COS THE PAST FEW WEEKS WERE SO DAMN EVENTFUL? HAHA MET UP WIT VAL FOR SHOPPING -_-, MET LAYBEE , HUISHAN N CO TO CATCH THE 8 MINS OF FIREWORKS BUT THE CROWD WAS A MADNESS ITS LIKE MASSIVE HUMAN JAM EVERYWHERE N WE GOT SEPERATED :( ANYHOWS WE CELEBRATED 2010 AT SOME WULU PANDANG AREA N APART FROM ALL THAT I CHANCED UPON MANY WEIRDOS, MET LOTSA NEYO'S FRENS N ALMOST HIS ENTIRE FAMILY :)))) THEY'RE ALL REALLY NICE PPL, THERE WAS MOVIE AFTER LUNCH, FISHING EDUCATED FISHES, FLOATING DISCOBALLS, ACIDIZED THROATS N TUMMIES, FREE FLOW OF BAKUTEH N WADEVER MORE! :) MAMA LOKE IS IN GOOD HANDS WITH THE MEOWIE NOW SHE IS EATING WELL, RESTING WELL, LAUGHING AS WELL, N IM SO THANKFUL THT MR NEYO CAME TO VISIT N BOUGHT SUCH HOU LIAO FOR MAMA, CONTINUED TO STAY A FEW NIGHTS N TAKING CARE OF US, HE BROUGHT US TO LOTSA ANIMAL FARMS, N IM GONNA KIDNAP THE DUCK ONE FINE DAY!! :( IVE BEEN WANTING A DUCK FOR SINCE WHEN I WAS BORN BUT MUMMEH N DADDEH NO ALLOWS SO DEPRESSING ='[ I HAVE CRAZY AMOUNT OF PICTURES EVERSINCE THE HOTEL, THE BBQ, THE CHRISTMAS, THE FIREWORKS, THE AIRPORT, MY NIECES, HIS NIECES, CARS, BICYCLES, FISHING RODS, BAITS, FISHES, DUCKS, DOGS, SWIMMING, CYCLING, SULTRY, TWISTS, KISSES, EYEBALLS, NOSESTRILS, 2009, 2010? OK ALOT BUT I HAVE NO TIME! NO TIME AT ALL! I HAVE LOTSA BLOOD WORK TO DEAL WITH, MYSELF, LEDI AND MAMA, PLUS PLENTY OF RESEARCH. MY HOU PENG YOUS ILL MEET U VERY SOON OK? I KNOW EVERYTIME I SOUNDED LIKE DAMN COMMITTED BUT I REALLY DO ITS JUST THAT I HAVE A NEW EPISODE WITH NEYO N I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHEN I CANT MAKE IT.. :))) LOVE LOVE.

UPCOMING EVENTS.
-
LADY LAYBEE
PICNIC WITH NEYO (3RD MONTH)
SENTOSA WITH DA BABES
HWEE N SHAN'S DAY
HUISHAN'S BDAY
VDAY N CNY?
LAYBEE'S BDAY WOOHHH??? HAHHAAHAHA ^^

2009-12-14T17:33:00.000-08:00

what remains the same in life? sorry bloggy, the assiduous task of reconstructing my life had officially began. A step closer to those that i love. Laybee.. thank you for being there. :) I love neyo.

2009-11-17T19:47:00.001-08:00

okie i think ive lost track of the entire world, hmm let me see.. i didnt buy any gifts during neyo's house visit so id bought a box of herbal jelly from eu yan sang for the family and the day itself we caught 2012, we tried to locate every possible cinemas but they were all packed to the brim, we'd no choice but to take the 12.20am slot at great world, was worthwhile baby :) our first movie date in 8 years? LOL. he kept teasing me abt it. grr. naughty. o ya baby bought me a webcam just to get close with each other when we r apart.. how sweet?.. so he can watch me slp and i can do the same o ya i could even wake him up by shouting over the mic. "WAKE UP!!!" response was damn prompt ok ahhahaha "huh?.." heheeh so cute makes me wanna crawl over to him and I DID, traveling west-ward was insane on a sunday.
So it was neyo's first day of work today, according to the motivation theory, i decided to cook some proper meal for him, credits to huishan and noobcook.com for all the lessons HAHA. love u huishan! cooking is not as easy as i thought it was but cooking for yr love one? F-U-N. baby loves it although i expected so much more pfft.. and r u sure u wanna eat wad i cook everyday? U SUREEEEEEE? YES?? NO CANNOT NOT NOW hehehhe ok, pictures.

this is so one sided, noob melanie gt no webcam.

keke shhh!

:)

neyo!! my clothes wet!! caught in the rain! "ok i help u iron, wear mine first." :D:D::D:D:D ure one in a million baby.

the long awaited movie, 2012.

chaipoegg, stir fried xiaobaicai wit prawn and fried boneless chicken.

disastrous weather caused us to eat here. >(

my abc soup's corn HEHEHEHHE love ya.

to henderson waves!

FAIL.

i got neyo's flu bug, yay!

y like tht.
p/s: i need a christmas wardrobe update puhless, send in more pretty goodies i aint seeing much, but more of repeated items. boring. HEHEHE GONNA MEET AH LAY TMR FOR MASSIVE HUNTINGS AND ON SATURDAY AH HWEE AND PEGGAN'S DAY YES YES!! LOVE YAAA!!

2009-11-11T01:16:00.000-08:00

neyo, JIA YOU.
i enjoyed all the chats we had especially when we're about to slp, from careers to baby names hehe.. we'd from breakfast to supper, from mondays to sundays. and very soon it will be replaced by my cookings everyday, we will make it neyooo! ARGH! i cant get enough of u.
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
lovelove,
meyo

lets play golf on the moon and tennis on the sun, on our supadupa honeymoon.

2009-11-05T22:43:00.000-08:00

:( ah lay why intro me this song, now i feel damn sad i dunno y LOL. but thank u for that, i needed it! laylay came my hse twice this week!! i love her to the bone! thank you for surprising me! hope ull come by again :P I WANNA GO SENTOSA EH EVERYBODY CALL ME A CRAZY BECOS OF THE MONSOON SEASON LOL. grrr.. i wanna go sentosa with the girls and my honeyboy. AH AH AH!! HWEE PENG FINALLY MSGED ME OMG!!!!!! GIRLL I KNOW URE BUSY BUT PLS DONT TRY TO FADE OUT FROM ME ELSE ILL DO IT BEFORE U OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?? keke kidding la i wont, know u had lotsa ass work to do. hmm okie my life seems complete now, but i dislike how the rain makes everywhere inconvenient. grrrr my honeyboy's submission is like in a few days time, its gonna be pretty arduous waiting for him :( time pls fly? heh heh i wanna go lotsa places with u, roam the streets, fill every day of our lives with neyomeyo! :) tell yall a secret.. u can now officially label me as bui cai ok? thnks! ok i go mum mum bye!

whot aye coot beybaye.

neyowebcam

neyowebcam2

jang jang!

our stitchyo

sayang sayang

2009-11-02T02:55:00.000-08:00

OMG i really am attached!!? hahaha i still cant believe it and im so happy i found the puurrfect one. i met his whole family already they looked exactly like one another, haha so funny! i made a bouquet of flowers for his mum's belated bday which is the same day as my dad's. heh. oh i stole them flowers from video 2 pls check them out but i didnt exactly use the whole bundle i picked and wrap it up for his mama ok!! hehe ok so there was halloween night, went people watching at clarke quay and surprisingly ppl actually requested to take photos with us but we aint like mischieving or had any themes, they are all so frenly including twitterboys. ok i wanna say sorry to laybee for not performing well on tht day k? ;[ not feeling well lo only had like 3 hrs of slp but i hope u enjoyed yrself! and i so wanna go out on thurs or shall i say wed? let me know k? im free as hell just for u laybee! and as for neyoyo ill see u soon too k!! ill help u do ur model if u need me, heh heh but i hope i dun mess it up for ya. ok nuff with the rant! here goes..

brink brinkz with a z ^^^^^

mylove.

thanks alan, nice shot really!

time to let those balloons go~ Aretha poh says: NO I DUWAN!

Aretha poh says: No I DUWAN I DUWAN I DUWANNNNN!

finally, after much persuasion ^^

ok i laughed my ass off when i witnessed this whole thing just beside her, i had my stomach working so bad i cant even hear myself laughing. jus look at her adorable face!

i caught them flowers!!!!!!!! yeeehaa proz!

2009-10-28T18:42:00.000-07:00

OMGGGG FINALLY I CAN MEET MY BABY TODAY WTF ALTHOUGH IT HAS ONLY BEEN 7 DAYS BUT IT SEEMS LIKE A FREAKING MILLION DAYS. I LOVE U NEYO!!

this is wad i did for baby when i have a minute of free time, definitely quality and not quantity. Our trade mark since young, melopy.

A VERY BIG THANK YOU TO DOUGLAS WONG!!!!

mummy.. ill be a strong girl for u. ill show u what's meow meow happiness and if you
need them ill inject those into u, lets go for more spas, hair treatments, pedis, manicures and lets travel the world. U will see meyoneyo later :)

the most special love-hate relationship, ever. Extracted from pap's 60th bday video dedication.

2009-10-23T16:57:00.000-07:00

neyoyo made this for me, me likey!

i is happy girl.
todays papa 60th bday celebration damn fucking boomz im tellin ya. my 21st was a shingz compared to his.

2009-10-23T04:10:00.000-07:00

During these few tormented days, we...
Melanie _ http://bagsg.blogspot.com/ says:
y
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
i miss u again
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
n again
Melanie _ http://bagsg.blogspot.com/ says:
hahahaha
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
n againnnnn
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
arghhh
Melanie _ http://bagsg.blogspot.com/ says:
can nvr get enough of u lo ;[
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
can miss canot see
n e o h w e e t i a t says:
will die lei
Melanie _ http://bagsg.blogspot.com/ says:
i dun wanna let go ytd
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.
then we tried..

but i cheated he cant see me ;[
therefore...

back home ;[

and.... :)))))))

my neyo so cute :) wa ive got great response after this few blog posts,
my ho peng yous! i love yall still k? thanks for all the support!

2009-10-20T09:06:00.000-07:00

NHT, opened an invitation to my heart.

sincerest apologies for my cheap doings but erm thats wad i cld deliver at this time,
i know ure in school right now as our schedules clashed, so these few days no physical neyomeyo but soon we will be able to meet again :)))))) like i said pls live n breed a healthy lifestyle, while ure busy ill take care of myself n slp as much as poss, n u do the same when im not ard ok? :) we'll go thru this ordeal tgr!
Thank you for remembering and acknowledging me as the childhood girl that you wanted to be with.. in exchange, i will now show the world who's this guy that i will kill to be with now :)

dai lou sek meh yin zai? chee sin!

:)

so focused, so charming.

the different attributes and characteristics of w.e.t partnership.

no melanie u will _______?????

:)))

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo...

im sucha pervy.

u will see me inside with u the next time, i promise u.

Continue...
telling your frens and even ur previous gf abt me.. i havent been saying this for quite sometime... and.. im finally a happy girl.. a happy girl thats happily in love.
remembering every little detail of me n u these 8 yrs, once we were having coffee and we decided to exchange ICs for awhile, he said tht was how u looked when i first saw ya and i said the same damn thing, twas damn cute or what?.. the words u say in your car took my heart to another dimension, when i had no place to go, u wld bring me to places that made my jaw dropped. the big air planes reflecting over the ocean, thats when the ultimate interrogation took place, u fared well darling, taking it to another level by making me meet all ur frens tht u hang out with, haha "show off" eh? u sure? :) living in the west traveling down east to meet me.. u said it was surreal and thot u were dreaming, well im telling ya i felt the same way too ^^ though the drawing u had given me 8 years ago was destroyed by some noobasshu, ill nvr forget stuffs like tht :) and i know ull get those replaced. we will surprise all our frens one day ^^ take them out for reunion and we'll walk hand in hand to shock their asses off. i know my cheesecake tht i baked tasted like eggs but u still ate it anyways, am glad. not sure if u really did keep the cheapo lunchbox haha anyways simple things like tht mean alot to me :) another precious moment that i captured was when u were using one hand to drive and the other hand holding onto mine.. i asked if its ok for u to do this n u replied saying u cant bear to let go of my hand.. at this stage im about to bazuka to the sky already.. but u told me theres so much more u havnt done to me.. so wad im gonna do now is.. buy myself a parachute. *smirks* ure not gonna think its a one way road are ya? pls never doubt or underestimate me k? for i have alot of seducing to do too baby.. :) HAHAS!
ok now isnt it obvious people? meowo is attached to neyo :)
FINALLY. no more oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh~(beyonce - single ladies)
hahaha are you happy for meowie? better be. :)
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and thts how he gets the girl.. lets go to sleep in paris and wake up in tokyo soon okkkk!? love u baby!

2009-10-11T03:14:00.000-07:00

body exploded.
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body recuperated.
Laughs. ok now i know why more n more people are in love with things instead of human. KIDDING!!!!

Met up with ah lay and i love going out with her so much i could never trade any others for that. :)

AND U KNOW WHO MSGED ME?!!!!!!!!!!!!! Memorizing my hp number for 8 years by heart i cant believe it. its NHT! so embarrassing! i fell aslp when we're interrogating each other and the best part was after like abt 15 mins when i opened my eyes i saw a pair of sexy eyes looking at me T_T i almost went crazy. but i had to pretend tht im ok so i just gave a heyyyyyyy!! why didnt u wake me up instead??? hahaha sillyboy! den he went like its an honour to watch u sleep.. i swear i almost had an heart attack.

they are all putting up an act... GUESS WHICH IS NHT? ehehhehhee very cute right!!????????? AMIINLOVEORWHAT? ^^^^^^^

2009-10-02T17:42:00.000-07:00

A huge success in surprising me people.. I didnt had one since like a decade ago, my friends are just unbelievably magical, i was dumbfounded and started tearing away when they sang me the birthday song.. drama man. A BIG THANK YOU AND MANY MANY MORE PARTIES YESS?!
OKIE, HELLO THERE! i havent been blogging for the longest time i think. I was quite emotionally sick from all the work and u wont wanna know that left me physically sick, oh nvm. I had my extensions taken off and then a hair cut, life's sucha mess, my stomach had created a great escape for me, i feast so much i grew like a tyrannosaurus :( anyways ill be back soon ok im just so darn tired havent been active on msn too thts so rare, but wadeva. Sometimes im just too tired, tired to blog as i find that there was nothing more for me to say, and maybe let life tell me what's its way. Anyhows meow meow turns 23 PLAUDITS!

dirty mirror dirty.

- emo
- depression
- blahs
+ apt
+ superexcite
+ flying high
+ delinquent bills

GOOD DEAL?

2009-09-16T04:11:00.000-07:00

ARROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW! MELANIE FELL DOWN AND APOLOGIZED TO THE PASSER-BYS TODAY.

PEACE OUT
x

i cldnt believe kanye just dissed taylor like that, dont really matter but kanye.. good job in being a douche.. for making statements like he always did, just.. poor taylor swift.

2009-09-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

why am i attracted to people who are troubled?
LEARNT. :(

If you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never

All the people are dancing
and they're having such fun
I wish it could happen to me

But if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again

If you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the wine-glass out
and drink a toast to never

Oh, someday I know
someone will look into my eyes
And say hello
you're my very special one

But if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again

Dark party bars, shiny Cadillac cars
and the people on subways and trains
Looking gray in the rain, as they stand disarrayed
oh, but people look well in the dark

And if you close the door
the night could last forever
Leave the sunshine out
and say hello to never

All the people are dancing
and they're having such fun
I wish it could happen to me

Cause if you close the door
I'd never have to see the day again
I'd never have to see the day again, once more
I'd never have to see the day again

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2009-08-29T19:52:00.000-07:00

Ok cronies, pls check out http://bagsg.blogspot.com/ best for budget bag buyers, they have pretty bags for extremely low prices, happy shopping! :)

SKOOL SUCKS SERIES.

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2009-08-22T19:38:00.000-07:00

1) TREASURE HUNTS.
2) BIRTHDAY
3) AND MORE BIRTHDAYS.
4) AWESOME RESULTS.
5) I AM BROKE.

NEW FRIENDS, 1 FOR M, ANOTHER FOR L, LOL?

BATTLESHIP DOWN.

SHAN SHAN'S BDAY (::)

AH DA'S

AND THE OBVIOUS, val's bday ._. camera shy girl.

SONG:
Well I don't know what I'm looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more
And I won't be satisfied
'Till there's nothing left that I haven't tried
For some people it's an easy choice
But for me there's a devil and an angel's voice
Well I don't know what I am looking for
But I know that I just wanna look some more

Well I don't know what I'm living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more
And you hear it from strangers
And you hear it from friends
That love never dies, love never ends
Now I don't wanna argue, no I don't wanna fight
'Cause you're always wrong and I'm always right
Well I don't know what I am living for
But I know that I just wanna live some more

I used to be involved, and I felt like a king
Now I've lost it all and I don't feel a thing
I may never grow old, I may never give in
And I'll blame this world that I live in
I visit hell on a daily basis
I see the sadness in all your faces
I've got friends who have married
And their lives seem complete
Here I am still stumbling down a darkened street

And I act like a child and I'm insecure
And I'm filled with doubt and I'm immature
Sometimes it creeps up on me and before I know it
I'm lost at sea
But no matter how far I row
I always find my way back home
But I don't know what I've been waiting for
But I know that I don't wanna wait anymore

Looking for...
What I'm looking for...
Looking for...
What I'm looking for...
Looking for...
What I'm looking for...
Looking for...
What I'm looking for...
Looking for...
What I'm looking for...

EXIT.

2009-08-13T06:00:00.000-07:00

its true u walk right through me, its true i see right through u.

ah bee and i covered the whole of singapore this week.. thank u ah bee my life's full of flavour when ure ard, no not as in the chaokueydiao, chocmudpie, eel porridge, steam papaya with almond, chic pink, jeans, shoes etcetc but really i love u. not forgetting ah da ah sa ah hui ah ting and AH RUI!! we shared roars of laughter, especially this random guy and his slipper LOL damned. help..... i cant stop laughing? k i gtta stop my fingers are turning weak from laughing shaites.

Am really happy for u val :)
shan and hwee lets meety up soon ohkays ? jo ah jo love ur random msges la haha lob lob.

2009-08-01T18:41:00.000-07:00

BIRTHDAY SEASON holy cow. another week gone wasted. ok we can ignore the previous post for me and val had miraculously patched things up. right. meeting dougie was quite a feat.. sigh why do i have to do it infront of me frens? but they were a great help :) thank yall! and i think dougie wasnt really happy with my reaction coz seriously? WOULDNT U LIKE TO KNOW? hahahaha yes im standing at 175 with my 10cm heels on, acting like a tiny litto mice like covering my gigantic face would help turn me invisible, sigh.. wad a gag. laybee mentioned something that made my eyes froze, something that i wouldnt like to talk about. sigh, ah bee why do u always make me feel this way? but i like you :) HEHE. then again, u should know why im like that. for now ill be gearing up for work, all the grown up issues and eliminate all trivial matters. oh wait, ive been eating, sleeping and breeding fats, now i wish mummy cld go on a trip so that i can shed those fats OFFA ME. i think i deserve a tight slap on my face for being so fickle. peetures yes plox.

MY EXCLUSIVE CLIQUE :)

ah bee ah meow ah sa

SLUMBAPARTAY

AH MEOW AH SA AH DA

WOOH!

MOSHING.

SLEEP LA OI!

SEXAY.

MJ vs HP dot dot.

I WAS TAGGED "UNSUITABLE FOR THE YOUNG"

munki

trannies.

BANANA DANCE

eyes on tht pathetic crab stick, i ate it. NOT! but i really wanted to. :(

if you break my heart, they'll break yours.

wassup with those hand signs? u think yo cool?

2009-07-27T06:07:00.000-07:00

when they say friends come and go. this post is directed to those who'd ripped my heart into pieces and u know who u are.
all along ive always wanted someone who could give me some love of what i had given to them. id learnt in life, u have to put in effort in whatever u want to achieve, and that includes frenship. U know wad i did for U and what U did for me over these years, ive gave U so much time, advices, laughters, tears, and most importantly, FRIENDSHIP. i do not understand why is it so hard to make an effort to use your head and heart to think for a friend who's in trouble. ive always backed u up when u needed help, u know damn right yrself and u even cried when i helped, ure the one who said u were touched by wadeva id done for u, yet, when i needed u, where the hell were u? even to the extend of ignoring my msges now. u know wad? screw this, cos why? FRIENDS BLOODY COME AND GO. so i should jus face reality and screw relationships. TRUST? even typing this word out makes me wonder does it even exists? i cant believe i've invested 4 yrs of youth to this childish ass guy, and 9 years to this U im talking about. sigh, im glad i still have lotsa frends who love me and i wanna thank yall :) u knw who u are we meet up almost everyday. this is my only hiding place, to those who has got my bloglink, yall mattered to me so dont break my heart and make me give up ok? :) LEAVING NO ROOM FOR U(s). i wont be hunting anymore, ill jus wait for people to prey on me. so, i dedicate my life to my family, people who loves me and make lots of money.

yeah, this is melanie loke, id found me, hope u choke on it. :)

insane amount of pics. ill update tmr.

2009-07-17T08:27:00.001-07:00

heyey. sorry for not updating, been like omgwtfbbqwhyamisobusy. ok so my parents left me for a good 5 days alone, thats good news. why? cos i had the whole house to maself. i can blast the music at like 5 am? and no one's gonna ever shut me up! for good. yes. i switched on all the lights and tv da whole night, roll and slp on their bigass bed eat on it, ask ma bitch slp on it, sing and dance ard with no one giving me that dirty look. HUZZAH! ok thats whoreshit. i dont do stuffs like that anymore. aite? im a grown up now ok? i have so much work to do. how cld they like leave me even for one day ALONE? NOW, THATS MESSED UP. I HAVE NO ONE TO CARE FOR ME. THEY KNOW THAT I CANT COOK FO SHO. THEY KNOW DAMN RIGHT. OH YES THEY DO.
SO ID LOST LIKE 3 KGs, I FEEL SO ANOREXIC. OK IM SRY BUT I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING SOMEBODY WITH MA BONES NOW. I DUN LIKE ME BEING THIN NOR BEING FAT. WHY CANT I BE NORMAL, WHATS WRONG WIT ME? T_T

so, the other day i went to my fren's party and it was pretty cool. groppers were like countless. ohmagad. lotsa babes, the peeps were really frenly, said hi and yeap. pretty fun. and then laybee told me what she's not supposed to tell me which is.....................drumrolls......................................
a hotass guy wanted to dance with me and i was acting tight? DAMN HOE! why didnt i? i messed up T_T alright kidding. HAHAHHAHAHA. u know i dont like to go such places. im like wad? turning 23? i shld stay home n look after ma damn bitch and recuperate from being aged out. i dunno why guys of the mid 20s like to show that they're like pimps, some owning cars, some using their parents' cars and call it theirs, some do not even have a ride, but that doesnt matter? they speak like they own the damn world, having a vast amount of money dont mean anything much, its just more convenient for u suckers out there and that dont determine a person godamnit. if u attained those yourselves, RICH! PLS SAVE THE POOR AND GIVE ME HALF! AND WORSE?.. THOSE THAT BARELY EVEN MAKE THEIR OWN MONEY DO I NEED TO SAY MORE? APPLAUD, WELL DONE! JUS DO US ALL A FAVOUR, SHUT UP, FOAD. Ok how the hell did i ended up here? hahahaha i have no intention to blog abt this, its just the spur of moment. now im off to work babies, so just beat it, beat it , beat it.

Y DO I LOOK LIKE A MEXICAN HERE?!!!

2009-07-07T18:11:00.000-07:00

my eyes are closed but I never sleep.

night lights are swayed on
i prayed for death

2009-07-04T19:34:00.000-07:00

MY PARALLEL UNIVERSE IS DYING.
blogger is turning me off so badly, i might just shift to another bloghost. anyways ive got no time for this, forgive me. my spastic hair is growing and i look like a bathing ape? i hadnt any haircut since 50 yrs ago. so yeap. mehair pls grow. caught transformers the other day, 11 tix was chaotic im telling you. we had to shift the seats i think like thrice just to get to the right one megan fox is a sex machine but im doubting if her breasts are genuine. hmmm i should had done mine instead of plucking 8 tooths and suffer 10 months of misery.

im feeling kinda lost right now. ive so much stress in me i felt like im gonna break anytime. lets see.. wad else? i dont know. but my life's so disorientated, fast forward 10 yrs from now and see wad im made of den bury me. im dealing with numbers and alphabets everyday, no i kinda like it but my eyes couldnt take the sight of it no i cldnt sleep much either. wads wrong with me? my heart's frozen, my brain's malfunctioning and my body is decaying. ultimate failure..
our love is like a song but i wouldnt wanna sing along.

tatted skin shows me another side of life. expressing art we bring back youth.

2009-06-20T03:04:00.001-07:00

LOVE MEAL FROM

AND

LOL MORONS. LOVE IT.

:) song that spells my mood.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.

2009-06-13T02:43:00.000-07:00

HALOH! ITS BEEN NONG I KNW.. NONGING FOR MY RANTS? ROFL. if its boring u den go burn ur leg hair or something la. hor? foreverfrensbear?
SENTOSA-ed
ive been called a monkey for the following days because of my super burnt face ._. my! ive got tan lines, thats damn tight man. woohoo.
we won the first match of volleyball (they swam one end to another for getting pwned) LOL i tell u its damn paiseh we booked the volleyball court but we're too pro for it, swear. HAHAHAHA the coach mother fucking laughed at us. DAMNED. but its ok we still had the high, and then my team lost as well ;[ but its damn lame cos our opponents cant think of ways to forfeit us so i decided that we approach a circle of guys(just beside us) and jus give them hi-five slaps while running one round ard them. thats a fucking benefit la wtf? i get to touch guys i do not even know? LOL.
PWNED. and one thing tht made us all laugh so hard was that when we were all in the sea kicking, splashing water n some of them swimming.. laybee asked "hey! here got shark anot ah?" SERIOUSLY? I swear ppl who dont know us laughed along WAD THE EFF!!! SHES FREAKING KIDDING ME? shes so cute can? she was damn serious when asking tht ok. i swear my bikini almost dropped hearing tht. its damn cock eh gummybear and bean isnt there la like wth!!!! uve been missing out alot man grrr.
im like a crack addict now, im done with late night chats pls i need to slp b4 10pm ;[ cut me some slack babies.
alright ill let the pictures talk.

^^ late night romance. secretly recorded.. haha shh shh.

and when i was trying my best to be wife material...

No Remorse says:
y ur surname keep changing ah ?
Melanie WONG POH YUE says:
HAHAHAHHA

FAIL. LOL.

GDNIGHT EVERYONE

2009-06-08T16:22:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BURFDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! MEIMEITING.
Rockaduck: please forgive me, i want you to be happy and thats all id ever asked for.
gummybear: dont angree k? ANG GEGGEGEGGEGE! we have mass femme make out session on wednesday :D
erne: sigh. confused. tired. lets go acoustic not pop not rnb nor screamo.

i too seen something tht i shldnt. "apt" ya right my balls, FOAD la eh.
who gives a flying cb about wad u wear and all the effing fucking street labels, grow some dick dude. trying too hard to look rich and fish those 6 ave girls? God ure a gag i swear. TRY HARDER.

TOMORROW NEVER KNOWS.

2009-06-06T21:41:00.000-07:00

BEN KOH!! IM SO GONNA RAPE YOUR SHOP! AHHAHA EVERYONE SEXY DIAMOND(TAIWANESE APPAREL BRAND) IS OPENED ON THE 13TH JUNE @ HEEREN LVL 3. PLS DO SUPPORT :)

-
my boyfriend.

he is so funny. ^^

2009-06-05T22:00:00.001-07:00

Its sucha fruitful week but im damnass tired. theres no more life in my eyes,
revive me pls. i need to sleep my butt off this weekend. went to meet my teens and i swear i can die trying singing bean's song choices, i dropped dead when i reached home. so effing drained, everything else was sped by in the blur.. oh ya! caught State of play with laybee and brendan + ernest, the show was alright. we didnt planned this, its well-suited our time, so eff luck. we are going to have movie marathon soon yes? ^^ Didnt expect ernest to be so nice eh seriously he covered our asses big time in L4D and hes damn encouraging.. i said i was damn happy when those fast moving zombies surround me they all thought i was going crazy... and laybee burst into laughter. WHATS WRONG?! ;[ damn turned on wad.. how shiok? i just sprayed their heads off and the blood splattered all over my screen, hows that possible in real life? fuck man i sound damn loser now. simi dai ji sia. k la pictures nah.

singapore idol audition starts today u know ^^

SLUTDAY.

PUSSYCATFALL.

IM SO FORCED TO DO IT. GROSS.

i think i quite zai to not put any make up on and show up in town.
i ought to be shot dead in the face.

Heard this guy playing this song in his list, caught my eyes hes kinda chic, our eyes locked but i was in a hurry to go. moans.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am
Come break me down
Marry me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break?
What if I, what if I, what if I
Bury me, bury me

2009-06-01T04:58:00.000-07:00

mabikerbabes. rock and roll honay!
made a skirt out of a shirt recently and im damn proud of it.
no pics surreh cos ive got an ass like a spaceship.

damn kl.

beep beep. comecatchme.

2009-05-29T09:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
SOULJA BOY SUCKS
ASIAN BOY IM NO NEGRO
I EAT RICE, I AM YELLOW.
I CANT RAP FOR SHIT BUT STILL
I CAMELTOE THAT HOE!
YOUUUUU!
YANK DAT CAMEL TOE NOW!
NOPE, you can't do it like me
HOE, So don't do it like me
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok lame lame.
Anyways ytd was my first time singing in a ktv pub? LOL
damn right nervous. i say eff my singing. hahahaha.
and not long after my song had finished, this wulu pandang english song
appeared, its definitely not ours so we carried on our celebration, and this guy was
singing so badly we cldnt be bothered as there were quite a few ah peks in the pub so we thot it would be one of them, we ignored it for awhile but i cld no longer help but to look for that fool as it became really drastically painful to my ears and its not really singing anymore hes practically reading in and out of tune. DAMNED. out of sudden i heard this "CB ITS U AH! IM LIKE SITTING NEXT TO U AND I DIDNT KNOW?" IT TURNED OUT TO BE MATTHEW? i had the hysterics of my life until my nipples fall off la? IT WASNT EVEN HIS SONG?!

again where the fuckem i? o i took this photo (:
totally missed my bearbeebean here :(
yeap, my uncle's back and im going into this hell hole again wish me luck biatch.
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-05-27T04:36:00.000-07:00

After reading this email i cried horribly, share this people:

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into our bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door every morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. I know how her heart could not bear to hear my last words now. I still carried her, my last one...this time with my wreatched heart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

2009-05-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

"He will change someday.."
4 years later..
.
.
"Ive never understood love before and im done with."
"What should i do now?.."
"Where are all my friends? Should i look for them? Can we hang out like we used to?"
"There's a part of me they'll never know."
"Nainai.. Im sorry.."
.
26/05/09
Now that you are happy and im alone i think we switched roles and that is okie. Never have i felt this lonely, i dont even remember how to complain or that i even have the right to complain to anyone. But im glad i'd passed this phase, im glad i did my part to show you my world, wad i do everyday, how bad my mom cooks and we still eat it everyday, how my sis, dad and i played games under one roof, how ledi sleeps and how i communicated with nainai in my half fucked cantonese. Its hard to get it all down but tonight i managed to straightened out some thoughts and i want to thank God for all that had happened. Because its wad made me today still standing, running and venturing life once again, i'll never let this slip pass through my fingers. YOU didnt make me wad i am today, i did and if u think ill want a boyfriend, think again. Am i that heartless to make them wait? No, i didnt. Am i heartless to push them away? Yes, i admit. I just wanna spend sometime alone with all my plans and mendings, for some reason this alarms me that im aging fast, but thats okie. My brain is old but my heart isnt. Who gives a flying rat's ass about image? Grow some hair! ^^

Right.
Ok sorry for the retardation quietness in here, im so elated that so many events had happened during this month, my frens are awesome and im sorry that our picnic has to be packed in subway format hahaha making our lunchboxes in this slutty weather just dont make any sense to me, will do a legitimate one in say september when the sun gets more chilled ok? Had a lengthy conversation with hwee and shan, it just gets better and better as we meet ^^ theres the shopping, and my bank goes screaming.. hahaha theres alot more but i just couldnt remember it hehe. Meeting the other bunch of ladies tmr :) THE HELL IS VALERIE? And thanks vanessa for bringing up this cry, bitch and moan cult which i have to embrace and share my problems with my keyboard instead of erasing them. :) peace suckuhs.

MY EYES!

U know how huge hellow kitty's face is? there on the bottom right.

IM BURNT UP, soaked in my own sweat but still smell like heaven HEHEHE.

2009-05-15T06:35:00.000-07:00

<3.

2009-05-12T02:07:00.000-07:00

I ONLY WANT THE TRUTH SO TONIGHT WE DRINK TO YOUTH~~ I HAD TO DO IT, FITS THE PICTURE PERFECTLY! ^^

I DONT HAVE A DRINKING PROBLEM, I DRINK, I FALL DOWN, NO PROBLEM.

mummy's day.
brio's.
bbq.
chalet.
bloodtubes.
volleyballed.
eight people in a car.
007 bang!
laybee's massage therapist.
truth or dare.
my virgin kiss... T_T
molested someone's butt for 40secs..
adrenaline rushed through my veins and a thousand apologies for drunk dialing people..
buiebuie.

i think someone peed without closing the toilet door and i went in. NOW, WTF?
MELANIE LOKE POH YUE, PLEASE FOAD.

LOOTED!

where the eff am i?! ok i took this photo.

cuties

how chic?

byebye.

2009-05-05T19:09:00.000-07:00

HOW CAN I BLEED FOR 14 DAYS AND NOT DIE?

Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
anyway i still kept your birthday present for me till now u know
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
haha
Melanie Loke Poh Yue says:
huh which one..
Melanie Loke Poh Yue says:
i oso kept ur badge n the graffiti
Melanie Loke Poh Yue says:
precious memories
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
my badge?
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
what??
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
acs ah
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
i only got one thing from u what??
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
the testube..
Don says happy birthday to myself! haha says:
hai.. u must have given to alot of guys before.. til u forgot

my illegitimate ex-whateverucallthat, an intellectual artist, and computer genius. What am i?... pieceofshit, best bet biatch.

i can make you ice cream, we could be a sweet team, melting in your vice dreams
i can be the sauce you crave, i can spell what you cant say
chocolate flavor love theme, treat the treats you so mean
covering your nights and days, let me give you what youd like.
i can make your mouth run dry, drink me like a liquor
c'mon and dip your dipper, show me what you're here for, guy.
fantastic flavor fancies, thank you dougie goodies.

2009-05-02T07:13:00.000-07:00

heyor cronies, to those taking your exams, do your best and we can jive all night after that alright? it has been a productive week although flight's cancelled due to swine flu. damned. :( not worth to exchange my life for a shopping spree afterall. Am still looking forward to may :) some old photos and pls cut the fucking fats off ma leg. that feeling is creeping back in.. my heart is a whirlpool, erased from memories of those ive loved. later alligators.

i blew my brains out of ma head already, tell me.
tydirwktpsp;[hsghmjhlezkkhmfenqxnt
and thats for giving me mixed signals
hehehehehe.

what comes to your mind when you stand infront of the mirror and take a look at yourself? ive always asked myself. who am i really?

2009-04-26T17:29:00.000-07:00

Introspection and wtf swine flu?
Im starting to get angsty and all, perhaps its the weather? NOH.
im a royal screw up when it comes to talking to guys who might like me, i just get really vile and toxic when i hear things i dont like. No time for lovey dovey shitznit anyway im addicted to making myself feel bad already, i totally dig self-loathing so just leave this to me and although im the youngest in my family, i feel that i have the biggest responsibility, the problem with me is that i think too much, i worry so much that its murdering me inside out. But on a brighter note, ive been doing things ive not seen in myself doing all these years and sometimes i wonder.. what am i gonna do if im all by myself? im so attach to my family i dont know what ill do without them.. im not a loner afterall, i just divert all my attention to them. see? theres too much going on my mind now, ffs cut me some slack.

2009-04-18T20:42:00.001-07:00

ADMIXTURE.

Events of the month...
BBQ
CHALET
HK
PICNIC

MEDICATIONS
SIDE EFFECTS
LOW RISK FOOD
VAGINA LOOKING VOICE BOX
DOCTOR SAYS IM A BABY
ONE LAST CHANCE TO GET MYSELF TOGETHER
I'LL TRY TO REMEMBER WHO I USED TO BE
GIVE ME TIME AND SPACE
ELSE I'LL LOSE ALL MY FRIENDS
FRUSTRATIONS IN THE AIR
IVE BECOME A SKEPTIC
JUST, LET ME GO
PLS DO IT FOR ME
ILL JUS NEED YOUR BLESSING
DONT WISH YOUR LIFE AWAY
SO SHAKE THAT ASS AND MISBEHAVE.

2009-04-11T21:38:00.000-07:00

Adam Lambert <3 haha now everyone knows whats the song i like from over the past 20+years :)
havent updated for a while. but just the sake of having a hour of so free time, maybe i'll update randomly, life has been more hectic than ever, seriously torn and beaten. Its a bloody insomniac week again, im getting really tired of myself, booked an appointment with an ent specialist on monday.. hope everything turns out fine.
i need to constantly remind myself: life is not about getting, but about getting over. and this line will just reappear as a soothing self-comfort, until i really forgot about getting, to anywhere.
well, gdnews is tht ill be tripping to hk. :D
aite, back to skype.

im so sick of love, and hearing all tht crap, we shld stop. i really dont think i need any now i dun wanna have the feeling of being spoon-fed and making myself all vulnerable, its just not my time yet. im sorry.

i dont wanna waste my love, so stay chaste.
Warning: lazy to resize pictures of the same size, as some of it are cropped

foohoo very delicious butter cream+white choc+ silky choc fillings = combo fats.

tired.

times like this i gtta pretend to myself that im slping, really desperate. ilooklikeoldwoman..

i sang the mario theme song when i saw her totally reminds me of that mushroom thingy ([:

adorablexxxxx

2009-04-02T03:49:00.000-07:00

Wazza!? my body aches, throat burns, i feel dizzy, my ears feel decompressed and have a head that can fry u an egg. I hate doctors, they always scam me and my time by giving me blardy pills that makes me switch off the whole amazing day.. yannow what im sain? its 19:04 now and i jus woke up not long ago. Good morning my evening. ok imma stop this boring entry now. Good bye.

Ty dougy.. its beautiful. ruff it alot. =)))))))))))))))))))))))))

Do lawyers have lawyers?

2009-03-28T17:31:00.000-07:00

2009-03-28T02:20:00.000-07:00

dougy itachied me again feeding me with meiji chocolate.. haha isa shygirl86 thank you duglass! im beginning to talk like him. Isa be purple leggings duglass LOL how haute is that?
so hmmm i stayed home today bekaws hwee isa pang sehed me and shanshan is still in recovering stage after the stay at hospi with all the sodium drips. so sad right? melly have only a few frens VAD THE HELLA. Thats bekaws melly really have problems making new frens or u can say that i m leading a totalbullshitloser life. not like some fly guy who has got like 800+ frens.
ok its family day again, bathed me ledi and myself, vhat's next? i ought to find a bf, hehe i dunno why am i so happy and im smiling to myself while typing this.. i want my next bf to be the ultimate geek, no really, those that goes crazy over dungeons and dragons, preach abt computer literacy, wearing preppy clothes and have this socially awkward attitude, damn.. its the maximum turn on for me. frens marveled at how odd i can be, yes.
anyways i kinda like what dougy told me today about racial harmony i find it damn cute, i called him a nig and he tsked me saying that im being very racist.. thanks buddy im just giving u the hoodlum behaviour as u go "wassup ma bgirl" :( now im being racist.. but isa loved the way u say that ure educating younglings on racial harmony it makes me smile retardedly.
hokays i will go walk the fat bitch and hopefully bump into some geeks having scenic walk with their DSLR camera :) speaking of that i need to get my 600 films, my putrid polaroid camera is succumbing.

go ahead, reach out and blush someone.

2009-03-27T04:47:00.000-07:00

confessions of a shopaholic we go. i liked it LOL if u guys would like to know ur whoever girlfrens better, go watch it. handed 1st gift to hwee already eee shes going bali without me tak der fair! I DONT CARE TAIWAN/HONGKONG TRIP SOON PLS AS FOR THE LATTER TRIP PICNIC WITH THE MACHOS AND BABES. we were talking abt some bgr shitsnit and i somehow remembered me as the girl from my sassy girl movie not the pretty-ness and charm but the demanding attitude, hmmm here's what happens when he asked me to play Risk with him u know that board game? READY? he asked after 40mins explanation on how to play the game, i gathered my arsenal fly them like planes and dropped my little cavalry pieces on to his countries like bombs and make those noises yriuuu BOM yiriuu yiuuuuuuu ji ba BOM BOOM BOOM BOOOOOM! i messed up his entire armies which he took quite awhile to settled, threw the whole damn board away and fainted on his lappie, he got really pissed at me but laughing at the same time, wanted to pack up those crazy tiny little bits of soldiers + board back to its coffin but melly mahjonged it all around the floor which made it really difficult for him. Only then he knows what i want and that spells ATTENTION. yes this is how i play my board games people, everything ended up pretty much chaotic in my hands.

endnote: we often love well but not wisely.

2009-03-25T04:00:00.001-07:00

i'll try.. let this blog breathe again..
as if i have lots of fanatical readers here. grrr
well, life is, of cos, terrible.
ive embarked a new chapter but sheesh
things that interest me may not interest most of u and u might think of me as a boring pill
whatever u say people, because i would think of yous very much the same.
this post will be truncated as its too much to encapsulate
popped in science centre last week with me family, meowie received a bookmark as a trophy:( after fixing the pyramid puzzle, itwas fun and i bought a kaleidoscope so pretty!
met hweepeng :) we hit the streets of orchard and we were the psuedo-aristocrats of the day
walking in and out of all the swanky boutiques; giving sales assistants a warm smelly snottily aura
haha just kidding of cos, we are the yiu siews *vomits* but they were really really friendly toward us
not to mention hwee almost walk through the glass door lucky u hahaha
headed on to the hospital to visit my poor little shan because of stomach flu ;( see? irregular meals right? grrr
dont cry ok lets plan our trip#1 to taiwan and then #2 to hong kong heheh
i wanna see my xiao gui :D ur mommy, daddy and po po is so so supersoniclovinglynice la.. hehe
bought 2nd gift for hwee because the thought of bringing the 1st was buried under all the rubbish like wth am i gonna eat today or how much should i spend later.
oops not that its not important but meowie is really olde and has goldfish memory. ookies times up and Hello coconutmilk u know who u are.
msn was like a theatre of war ytd. isa be itachi. \@_@/

2009-03-14T21:02:00.000-07:00

This is sex:
HEHEX

old world underground where are you now?
subtract my age from the mileage
on my speeding heart, credit cards
accelerate, accumulate
looked for you downtown
wound up in a movie with no story
now it's late and you are nowhere to be found
hesitation's always mine
hesitate outside the times
with all i don't say
with all i don't do
im sending you
invitations to hesitate too
every ten year-old enemy soldier
thinks falling bombs are shooting stars sometimes
but she doesn't make wishes on them
when she wishes, she wishes for less ways to wish for
more ways to work toward it
ten year-old enemy soldier
our falling bombs are her shooting stars
say you've been with me
this whole time
old world underground i never knew you
but ive seen your face everywhere
there was a farm before we tore
the small town down
multiply, divide.

22 half going 16 half

2009-03-11T22:18:00.000-07:00

recently spoken to lots of long lost friends and relatives, all the worries and troubles.. yes i know its a time that we should be worrying, u will all make it to the top one day if u would jus stop worrying so much about school and work alright? if there's a will there's a way.. cliche but damn it makes perfect sense. and ppl brooding over love relationships? hey dont make it sound like its the end of the world come on, ive already survived 4 jailed up years of my most important yrs of life by an unscrupulous bastard, so dont come here and be telling me about the whats not, right? i so dun wanna know. judging from this i so dont wanna grow up fast settling down and missing out all the fun man haha sorry jie im not saying u but i chose this path so pardon ur sweetass sister. As for my house.. sigh i need 10 panadols.. left me really flummoxed.. i dont wanna talk abt it now. Mclin wants to buy me food becos i was sick ytd somehow; food poisoning, silly boy. yes.. i vomited, my throat's still burning and stomach's churning, ive made multiple trips to the toilet and seeing that weak reflection of myself scares the shit out of me each time i see the mirror, i swear i found the first ever specimen i came close with the ghost who acts in grudge or should i say the ring? went to meet my gang of teens ytd was damn fun heheheh love loves. anyway im addicted to this song dead and gone oops very the hippuhoppu but gtta love the front few seconds of the vid where they did the quote, funnily my favourite chapter in the bible is Corinthians too. ;P pictures awholedamnlot but mel is a lazy.

2009-03-07T21:13:00.000-08:00

i lied *holds up white thong* a step back to what i splurged on: a pricey ysl bag for business traveling, a rebbeca minkoff sale is on, hence looted one cute morning after clutch bag, marcjacobs zip clutch wallet and insane amount of clothes. Now's like what, March? ohmagad. Dream walk-in wardrobe in the making :) Welcome to thriftway 2009.

2009-03-04T03:12:00.000-08:00

Hello yous,
had sucha bad headache i thot i cracked my skull,
anyways been out with valerie.. its been long my fren :)
i passed her gifts from 50 years ago, and she gave me birdnest yuhoo :D

Geesus u guys, stop asking me for help on money.. ask someone else like OCBC or Mr Queck Hong Leong FFS. damn peeved already.. what a major turnoff so please back off and leave me the eff alone.

So dougy says i can play Borgia, supposingly killed my husband by poisoning him with i think rat poison or some arsenic shit in his cup of milk and he died, THANKS im sucha lovely wife.. spoil my reputation hehe even if i were to be your witness am i of any help? your advocacy cup u decide. Grats on earning 1st place on impresario, so this shouldnt be a problem for u at all.

~~AgnesBBag~~
See im sucha nice friend *sniggers*

2009-02-23T17:20:00.000-08:00

sorry for deserting this blog geez.
its been awhile.. how youuu dooooing?
yes i love how we did our presentation, great job u guys :)
dougy passed me those gifts anyways hahaha hes so sweet la :)
alot of freaken shit happened
i saw fireworks of rice, and it landed all over me credits to? hweepeng :)
ma bank exploded thanks to? hweepeng :)
ah almost got asthma attack from laughing too much, why? ask hweepeng :)
i walk alot, eat alot, talk alot and drank alot(sodas that cost 4bucks, vanilla shakes that cost 7 and truckloads of water) (:
im so in love with marc jacobs, blarday genius i say :))
i saw Fann Wong, prettay woman :(
caught alot of movies recently with random ppl and lovely hwee+shan xie xie ni maadaam peace maadaam.
and lastly i have a agnes b star edition bag to GIVE AWAY for free its purple in colour, a gift from my ex bf(yes not shy) used once for about 2 hrs so its quite new,was clearing out my closet and i know pingting wants it so if u ever read this, i can reserve it for u, in exchange i want MJ bag ty? haha kidding. jus email or msn me :D
BOOKS RETOCKED HELL TO THE YEA BABY

2009-02-13T19:05:00.000-08:00

i do wanna see that confetti filled balloons up in the sky today..
im sorry.
i couldnt accept anything from u..
i loved how u did everything for me the book.. sunflower and the thots of me hiring a date, u did a substitute for.. im jus an unblessed girl to begin with.. the only thing i could accept: your thoughts.
Im thankful to have met u, I hope u'll walk away soon.

2009-02-12T18:08:00.000-08:00

brazilian wax.

2009-02-08T04:20:00.001-08:00

i have 29 Hahs after posting shoutout. EH WHY?

2009-02-05T16:48:00.000-08:00

so tired.... so lazy to upload photos from dinosaur era, its damn irritating i think id asked someone about food allergy and next thing i know i became freaking hell boy.. o my word. after visiting allegra + sister from the hospital, the rashes started spreading, what the hell was that anyways? but ive got to thank my mum and dad for their miracle potion, its like big big mosquito bites all over my body, monkeying the whole night ok its damn miserable, so after drinking that potion its gone, if thats not miracle i dunno what is. The next best thing is i gotta wake up at 7am? and it all happened when its 3+4am? so today i was gonna buy my lunch at some cafe, someone called me from behind, turned around and my two sexay aunt were waving frantically at me, so zhun, talked about all the old times laugh like mad and ending it with a free lunch home ^^ anyway ITCHY-RED-ALLERGY-THING U DEBITED UP MY DARK CIRCLES I SAY FUCK YOU SO MUCH. T-account can? rushing bye.

2009-02-03T04:52:00.000-08:00

ALLEGRA ARRIVED OMG SO CUTE!!!!!!! I THINK SHE LOOKS LIKE MY SIS HOW CHIO? IM GONNA VISIT HER LATER HEHEHEHE WOOHOO NOW I HAVE TWO LITTLE PEOPLE CALLING ME YIYI, i dunno y but im very happy HEHEH ok i seriously hate numbers, effing zonked out already help blooday help, anyways jack thank you for sending me home, u know i dont need any jack to do that oops but defintiely appreciated and abt that sms..ure kidding me right? hmmmm, dougy met SUM SUM IN SCHOOL TODAY. SO? OH BLOODAY SNAP LAH? so he wants to send a bomb to my house? I ISA LIKEY BOMBS TO THE MAX U CAN TRY ME VERY WELL, BUT TO MY PRIMARY ADDRESS OK? AND WHADDUP HOMES? met some new friends goodness they are so adorable can? Presentation + project the fuck out of me, have a great week ahead u sexy ppl.

2009-01-22T13:54:00.001-08:00

you know, sometimes i just wanna kill myself. Its 4+ in the morning and i have an asthma attack, yes its definitely different from many people becos i have serious sinus issues which make my nose totally useless at this point, i cant breathe with me mouth nor my nose, i should just breathe with my ass. Id to sleep up straight and i think im gonna get an overdose of ventolin, ya im so choking tired right now and i have to wake up at 7am, SERVED. Thank you for listening and God bless me.

2009-01-16T18:29:00.000-08:00

Chào! Có gì mới không?! haha.. I had sucha great experience in vietnam, although upon reaching on the first day i totally blackout, i couldnt see and do not know wth is going on at all and after i gained back my conscious i realised so many hands around me rubbing me with ointment and i have no idea who the hell were they? laugh out, i guess i couldnt accustom to their weather, its so effing hot in the day and freaking cold in the night, i had really bad sunburns, did alot of running here and there basically i just used sign language to communicate with them wiu proud proud.. I was quite depressed when i see those people on the road side.. Mummy say i couldnt give them anything or else they will all crowd around me for something.. so i just looked at them, said sorry and gave them the saddest smile ever.. its so hard to look at... those look on their faces just auto activated my tear glands.. i will never forget how lucky i am. ~_~ anyways i managed to find all the materials i wanted, now still in compressing mode. hehe company in vietnam is huge and well-respected not like the one in singapore -_- still got ahellot to learn.. mummy said while i was sleeping she noticed my breathing was really abnormal i do have an attack at night i forgot to bring my ventolin :(.. she wants me to go for an MRI checkup -_- i dunno wad else anymore, but she insist on it. Ive learnt alot from this trip and im hoping to learn even more, i wanna learn everyday and always be the student, i dont think anyone can ever say that "i'd learnt everything, there's nothing i wouldnt know." trust me there're people like that, i call them bullocks. Visited the so called coffeehouse which is like the zouk in singapore? I dunno but i dun enjoy such places frankly, the place is noisy, smokey and the ppl there are the same, but the drinks are dope ah, no shitting! I have no appetite in shopping so i spent mostly on gifts for sister, BIL, niece and valerie. Sorry sis i dunno what to get for u, i kept asking this question in my head what to buy for jie ah? scratch head walk here walk there browse browse, couldnt catch a glimspe of anything for her but managed to buy you something la. Now i have to unpack everything -_-_-_-_-. I MISS LEDI SO MUCH! SHES SO PLEASEHUGMEFACE WHEN I REACHED HOME.

daddy surprised us with this when we reached airport. sucha sweet man.

i hate plane food but i have my roti ice cream

Uncle to tampines thanks.

my throne.

alien technology

2009-01-11T16:42:00.001-08:00

Just had my doors fixed, totally brightens up my room but the door knob is how gross, i went to get it last mintue round the market, marched all the way back sadly, emo, slit wrist, drink poison.. =( i can change it anytime.. but seriously where got time? rofl now my room smells like sawdust &%#&@^*@ even after a massive cleanup! i bought my new bed too tres syok can double pockets but its still a supersingle i dont want it to occupy half of my pathetic room, so that means i can still breakdance with me ledi, peace ma sista! YES! I saw Allgera, she opened her eyes as if she knew we were there to see her, shes still in mummy's tummy and she have really nice lips! Cant wait! ok gotsa fly soon, gotsa do lotsa packing, sigh... I HAVE ALOT TO DO TODAY SO CHILL OUT U MOFOS.

guess who's coming along?

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JANG JANG!

2009-01-09T17:16:00.000-08:00

Dear Trouble,
No one fights me like you do.
Yours resentfully,
Melanie

Emails flooding me whole. I miss you sister, cant wait to carry your bundle of joy, quick recuperate and have that sexy body back.

2009-01-02T08:58:00.000-08:00

Well done, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2008-12-26T23:36:00.000-08:00

I is greeted by this when i came back home,
meet furryfatfairy, ledi.

Happy holidays! was quite a syok christmas, i gained like insane amount of fats (= headed down to one of my other workplace to do some training today, and up next, will be going on an overseas trip for some material hunts. Daddy and Mummy i wan you to retire by 2009 and for daddy i know its confirmed but really i would like u to rest as well, time for u to hang loose, go fish some whales or sea lions back hehe, i will try to provide as much. Slavery fest starts soon, it'll be fun as hell with this whimsical schedule, no diggity.

2008-12-17T21:42:00.000-08:00

HELLUA! miss my rants? i know i know, it's blooday 5.57 am i was woken up by a call from australia to confirm some orders.. pfft. my bedtimes are like heavily altered, thanks to shaun, was very busy helping my mum with work,
limbei PAYDAY :) so effing happy la fuck, AND NO! IM SAVING IT, and i think im late but congrats on yr newly opened tattoo shop over at far east Leslie :) that proves tht you've got
great skills? i'll deal with u soon, and melvin got the guts to ask me for ji ba kor walao no money den find me :( anyways will hook u up with ur shipping quotations(no promises),
and duckie doug says look for him if i need to commence a lawsuit woah for what? divorce? LOL KIDDING of cos its the blooday vietty fuckheads they better behave.
alright i know its abit early for this but yea heres my list of 2009's obligations yes uve heard it right not resolutions.
1) take over mummy's company(im so gonna do it so i can hire my experts(shan & hwee) to work with me no need to wear stupid shoes stupid clothes and tie up stupid hairs, PERIOD.)
2) shed off 5 kgs(dread exercising these days)
3) stay healthy(oh yes)
4) downsize ledi(rofl?)
5) collaborative work with avintia(projecto)
6) play all my favourite songs on the piano(im still a big struggle at reading sheets)
7) save $300 per month(can!)
8) cook all my favourite food(wait nong)
9) tripping with my lovies
10) buy valerie some lingerie. (ok inside joke)
MY DAYS ARE SO OVER RIGHT NOW 2008 FUCK OFF U BLOODAY ROTTEN YEAR, ITS DAMN RETARDATION BUT ID TO SAY ITS GOOD TO EXPERIENCE IT. IM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO 2009!!!

2008-12-11T06:29:00.000-08:00

sorry dougy, im beat, beat, beat.

<3

2008-12-06T18:20:00.000-08:00

a very feathered christmas. sexay time...happy holidays!

Well, I can't tell ya how to live your life
But I know how to live mine
I take home pretty things that I like
And baby, you are so fine
Yeah, I could give you everything you need
With just one touch of my hand
But I swore I would never fall in love
With a boy in a rock & roll band.

nuff said.

2008-12-05T03:21:00.000-08:00

haha. WOTTTTTTTTTT?

2008-12-03T15:39:00.000-08:00

"the past is just reference, used as inspiration for the next sentence."
her very escape; her tiny purse can never ever accommodate.

santa by meltella

trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a foe. oh. oh.

2008-12-02T06:13:00.000-08:00

little nonya.. reminds me of my granny T_T miss u nainai.

my little cheeky ah ri ta and eye bags.

coming in theatres!!

2008-11-29T23:03:00.000-08:00

wtf la.

2008-11-24T00:00:00.000-08:00

Outsmart me to unlock me.

2008-11-21T21:05:00.000-08:00

2008-11-20T05:05:00.000-08:00

SHOCKINGLY one fren of mine is married, and the other one got robbed out of everything and i mean EVERYTHING, the funny thing is that im born a libran, and i cant balance these two situations up, i was quite affected by the second one sigh but im definitely happy for the first one, growing up with her and knowing abt her past, looking at how radiant she is now really plant a smile on my face, but for the second.. i totally feel her and i couldnt do a thing or two to help, i do see a little reflection of myself and i know this is the time she needs to be thinking and not drinking, hers was bad ass, but girl.. i have faith in you, so please do not give up, i had my moments as well, but its all within you, you have to shut it down, i guess its the time u think with your brain and not your heart. yes afterall now that im fully conscious, i say pls fuck that dimwit and blardy move on, one should trust your instincts and open up your eyes big time, just leave that fuckbag already. OK i know my blog has been alittle wordy EH WHY? cannot issit? BREAK LOH. anyways im really tired so spare me. Hweee and shan can we pls have a night out cycling? i have cravings for it eversince u know, get jeremiah and some of the machos along pls? OK back to work.

EDIT: chanced upon something interesting my old guestbook wtf? pls look at the dates and the people!!!!
BEN, MARVIN, GARY and the term D&M CAN + the word break? LOL wow fucking ancient shit
below:

yoh! ur page got errors in my internet. nevertheless, u put in effort in this site. sweet (^_^)

from chloe
[email] [homepage]
6:36 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
neater page but can include more stuff. ( esp pics of D & M ) hahaha. well, gd luck to both of you. study hard n break hard! gt time help me find a gf as well hahahaha. tata~

from marvin
[email] [homepage]
5:05 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
getting nicer eh...so nice...but when i right click...the whole page become blank...lols...duno wat happen...kp up e gd work anyway...take care...hmm i cant find your tag board also... =)

from tongy
[email] [homepage]
4:56 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
hohoho... getting more and more cartoon le...lOlz.... keep it up ya... last but not least... good to ya.. D & M... Lolz

from Gary
[email] [homepage]
2:13 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
woo hoooo im here kakaka nice webby -_-

from max
[email] [homepage]
1:52 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
mel, u say i repeat wat i said one ar, haha. heard that u are sick ya. take care k. wonder its sick or stagefright, haha. i think the world is made in a way such that we must lose something to know that that something is precious, no matter whether its a thing or a person. i guess pp must oso fall sick sometimes to know that health is impt to us, afterall, if theres no ugly pp, we won know hu is pretty or handsome, so be glad for my presence, k, hee. u take care and jiayou in everything u do ya.

from bertie
[email] [homepage]
1:40 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
YO! new look!better than the previous one! keep it up ne!and also update ur blog regularly ya

from namida
[email] [homepage]
WASSSSUPP B... =P ... YOUR WEBBY VERY NICE... KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.. STAY CUTE AND HEALTHY... AND HOPE YOU DAMARE MORE.. x| ..

from Jarel Ng
[email] [homepage]
12:43 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
dont say i didnt sign. from this morning i tried to sign... then the guestbook dont wanna accept my entry... i 4got what i wanted to say already... get well soon, puffy. =X - Ben (pSyk)

from ben
[email] [homepage]
12:39 am - Saturday,May 10, 2003
sup.. hey gurl.. i may not get to see you as often as i'd like.. but deep inside my heart...i know, this is for real.. no matter what.. i'll always love you. mish u!

from penguin with dreads
[email] [homepage]

to the last entry so sweet right? my ex puppy love from ACS barker siol, just had a little chat with him i was really notti back then did break his heart a little, sigh everyone has grown up, felt so guilty.. he did mentioned "pls take care of yourself, im not around you anymore" wa i feel the pain ok. these are what i call gd sweet memories fucking legit man, i rem we celebrated valentine's day at cine exchanging gifts hahaa his boomba hair and our preppy effing clothes, every weekend he and melvin went all the way to bedok at like freaking 3-4 am to find me and val walaoooo those were the days la.. and they stay like bukit panjang? anyways fucking LOL. and yep i still have that drawing u drew me plus ur sch badge. :))))

2008-11-18T17:24:00.000-08:00

Life's a drag, its funny how God make things happened and made you realise how precious your life is. Seems like everyone is so money-minded now fishing for richies? Screw you all!! But pls bring me along during matchmaking? rofl. I tells you I freaking bought an entire set of wii? its the shit, i have from guitar heroes to rock band to wii fit to fishing to guns and pimps, im just a few inches away from living like a movie star, minus the gorgeous cars minus the humongous mansion and strippers hmm ok there, i pushed away important dates just to stay home and play this amazing wii, so dont bother me, hmmm im learning to play this song by John Murphy, i dont have the sheet music for it so its pretty nasty, if theres anyone out there who have it plsplspls i beg u send a copy to my mail, i only need the sheet music not tabs thank you!! braces are coming off in 9 days hmm i dunno if i had developed feelings for him, but thank you so much for accompanying my teeths and really ure a blardy pain in the arse, ok i need to fuck off now byers! sry peetures next time. here it is!! john murphy - heartbeat

2008-11-16T07:54:00.000-08:00

OH MY WORD. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!! PREPARING FOR ALL THE LESSONS AND SOME BUSINESS IN THE MAKING ROFL. WTF? ID NEVER KNOWN I HAD SUCH TALENT U CAN LAUGH UR THROAT OUT VAL. LIKE THEY SAY TOO WEIRD TO LIVE TOO RARE TO DIE. AND MY HWEE AND SHAN SORRY IM BUSY LIKE A RAPIST.. ANYTHING HOLLA AT MY PHONE OR MSN HUGHUG XXX PICTURES MANY MANY BUT VERY LAZY AND IM VERY TIRED NOW SO SHUTAP.

FORGOT TO ADD I NEED TO STOCK UP SOME NOVELS! ANY RECOMMENDATIONS? NEED BOOKS LIKE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE/THE CATCHER IN THE RYE/CLOCK WORK ORANGE AND CECELIA ADHERN'S I DONT WANT GOSSIP GIRLS OR TWILIGHT SERIES -_- PLS DROP ME A MAIL TY!

DUE TO OVERSPENDING, IM BANNED FROM NOW ON, THE ONLY THING I HATE MOST IN THE HOUSE IS MY KITCHEN, MUMMY AND DADDY WHEN I HAVE ENOUGH MONEY LET ME BUY U A KITCHEN, MARK MY WORDS, HMMMM BUT U HAVE TO FIRST BUY ME 10 CHANEL BAGS, NO IM JUS KIDDING!

AND RIP TO THE POOR GUY WHO'S BITEN TO DEATH BY PRETTY TIGERS, WAD A WAY TO DIE? sigh. AND USD SHOOT UP TO 1.52? DAMN, I SHOULD HAVE KEPT MINE..

AND PLS GUYS BE PATIENT I'LL TRY MY BEST TO MAKE TIME FOR U.
I ROLL WITH THE BEST, SO LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL, WAIT UP HOMIES.

2008-11-09T06:46:00.000-08:00

the day i played boxing with my dad, had a vid but i cant show u guys! ROFL sorry!
guitar heroes up next!

wind so big it cocked up my hair.

wad siol.

2008-11-05T22:25:00.000-08:00

ahyik
reunited*
zhen hai on lock sai..

i laugh so hard my panties dropped? this arabian man made my day, dope ah!

2008-11-04T17:50:00.000-08:00

hey ppl thanks for all the sweet msges, i didnt know there're still people reading my blog but yea.. i know i sound so different from 2004 posts, apologies :( anyways mum and paps not home, ive got so much to do, i need to collect some dough from a guy in dubai his name damn long siol, im not racist! while i was talking to the customer support i almost died! reloaded again but i have no idea wad to spend on? i dont feel like fulfilling my wishlist anymore its getting really ridiculous, but anyways dinner was easy peasy cooking, what i love most is the vsop kailan woot woot i ate a plate before picturing it so dont mind the pathetic branches left, and the soup of the day is zha choi tong, i should have add in pork instead of chicken thats because market ran out of pork ribs but still yummy and lastly my dad's signature dish baked potato with ba chor! this is my first post on food ._. CHANGED.

i know its too much for one diner, but honestly im only left with baked potato which i can easily heat it up and voila!

my night view.

2008-10-29T19:59:00.001-07:00

awesome. i love this guy.

2008-10-28T04:24:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY FREAKING LONG SWEETY HAIR
I SWEAR I WILL HAVE U BACK I WILL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF VERY WELL AND U WILL GROW
BACK AS THICK, LONG, SILKYSMOOTH AND HAIRY LIKE BEFORE.

MELONGHAIRS :(

LONG

omgslut.

BIKINI miss u shan spankspank.

VERYSICK but im a survivor.

effingannoyingface i wld punch myself back then.

5 years back, how healthy and young? :(

hwee thank you so much, u made a twinkle in my eye when u said u missed my smiles, i swear i'll grin the next time i see u ok?

sigh comes back down wassup 2008?

the artist and his model

will upload some vids of me playing piano soon STAY EFFING TUNED.

2008-10-21T04:46:00.000-07:00

I don't buy shots I only buy the bottles -
he ain't got no money in the bank
he be walkin around actin all stank
and now he at the party lookin at me
hopin he can get saved by me

High dosage on Mel-ups and omega3 -
a box of melaleuca
and a box of dead sea natural beauty.
total damage? $949.90

health it is.

2008-10-18T17:56:00.001-07:00

I guess this is the point where by i have to tell everyone whats really happening to me, Im diagnosed wit some incurable disease that can only be controlled, it has been affecting my lifestyle so much that i had to change it, i dont even look like myself anymore, been taking medications that cause various side effects, you asked why i chopped off my hair? cant colour my hair? well this is it, and soon, i cant even doll myself up, which means no contact with make-ups, and i cant even stay near my precious furry white dragon, which really breaks my heart, there're some friends and family members who're really understanding but its a bitch when some kept doing things to hurt you, and most of you that i rarely meet anymore, im sorry i do not want you to pity me, it just reminds me of why i should be sad, honestly there are so much things i cannot do and that includes delicious food, besides having all this i have to remember how to smile no matter how hard it is, i just hope i wont turn into barbie, and thank God really to have such loving family, it really teaches me how to fight from within and out, as for this emo post i jus wan ppl to know why im fading away, i'll come back once in awhile when its under controlled, dont worry its not cancer nor aids, just pls respect my decision. Thank you so much!

2008-10-15T18:03:00.000-07:00

im ready to go right now!!!!!!!!

fuck them eyes i want it wide open they are like half way there. ._. ok i really miss my long hair right now but its wadever. and i wanna colour my hair too!!!!!!!!!! argh!

MOVE BITCH!

sidenote; its really nice when someone is caring for u but its even better when they do it with a smile on their face, it is just priceless. :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

2008-10-13T17:23:00.000-07:00

met meishan ytd haha shes so adorable la! :) went topone + some regular shopping, for so much that had happened, she understands how much pain i went thru during sch which makes my heart felt so warm, and also i would like to present to u KENNYNG!! for these past 2 years, he had and has been there for me, researched and spell every little detail out for me, encouraging and telling me stuffs that i need to know, being there when i seriously needed someone and not having to disturb my family, coaxing me, caring for me which is a spankyass job, listening to my laughters and tears, i just wanna say thank you! AND ALSO ure a changed man judging from day one when i first met you, a good change. Im really lucky that i didnt throw u away and u didnt give me up, Certified A++ friend lols i sort of kept u in my closet anyways, thats a wrap! gotta go bye!

this is traveling ledi suffering from motion sickness!

who do u see?!

2008-10-10T18:14:00.000-07:00

woooowiwiwiwiwiwowoowowwaaaaoooowiwiwiweweeeewaoooooooowooooooooooooooooooooowiiiiiiiiiiiii

missluohan...

2008-10-07T04:58:00.000-07:00

WHAT? WHAT? WHAT?!!!

roadtrips.

myladiladilaa~ tres cute siol

my smile is so miserable.

snip snip snip

see this laochabor.

overdueeee

prettay ballballs

hearts all over the world tonight

my lie detector.

guess where? just oner more month, bye!

2008-09-20T23:06:00.001-07:00

can anyone else make me fight for him? see the good in him when he cant even see the gd in himself? questions piled up my freaking mind, temptations are everywhere, bastardazing whores, is it me or i just dont get it? im not against the world but i choose to live my life, i wanna be the girl who he thinks is the cutest, not necassarily the hottest or the prettiest, but the cutest, because hotness refers to the body, and god knows mine isn't perfect, pretty refers to the face and i know plenty of girls prettier than me, but cuteness is refering to every imperfection that he loves, every weird little habit, the funny little things that make me different from every other girl he could have, like how i have a dorky laugh, or i can't sing, or the way my hair smells, all of the little things that he notices and adores, i wanna be that girl, but really, im tired, everything is so different when ure single, yea ive always hated that, but life's changing, i feel confident doing the things alone myself without having to please anybody, it isnt that bad being lonely, so just let your joy scream across the pain, im single for 7 months, cheers!

2008-09-20T07:09:00.000-07:00

hahaha thank you all for making it happened ytd despite the fact that u were all tired from working all day everyday. anyways it was quite a day making lots of new friends, hope to hang out soon! TSR is sooooooooooooo cute la, :) he took my bag and spun it ard like he's working it for a model show. ahahhaha it was sucha hilarious shit la ytd making a fool out of everyone including myself i bua-ed TSR, QY and jimmy? he had an minor accident but still made it for me, *touched* and i was the pole for TSR begged him to GRIND ME WOOHOO but he's so shy, damn. ok skip, went for supper with some of them after that and silly wants to send me home, but its ok uve done enough :) really appreciate the thot each time u offered. and surprisingly no camwhoring wtf why?! too happening already! alright, looking forward to my naked teeths day. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD GD NIGHT EVERYONE!

2008-09-15T03:31:00.000-07:00

no one was there to help me. no one was there to say "hey, i understand no one was there to talk to", and no one lent me a hand so if your expecting me to comfort you you've got it so wrong because im looking for someone who can do that for me first.
o wells look at you, a well dressed hypocrite, just because you can spell love, doesn't mean you should say it so much.

2008-09-11T08:16:00.000-07:00

DR Q GROOVEE IS ARRIVING! EHHEEHE!

2008-09-07T20:37:00.000-07:00

this story caused me to marc it up instead. :) i like big bags and i cannot lie.

2008-09-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US! Had so much fun yesterday catching up with relatives, o btw im gonna have another to-die-for thing to do and that is getting the nappa charm bag freaking hell, its just too lovely. And i swear its so unhealthy, im so obsessed with it, just bought a vaio laptop and now another purchase? of cos not! i know that this bag would wait for me! And i'll be coming i swear, say... after achieving something like my driving license? haha ok that's absolutely possible. And seriously kennyng have to stop asking me to play webcaming wit him, he kept laughing at my face what's wrong with this guy? ya so i did a little dance for him, he should feel honoured right? DAMN! hmmm pics arent with me so stfu and wait. gdbye and where the hell are my presents?!

i like the white guy alot!! his laughter is so addictive! i wanna strip him pls?!

2008-08-30T00:02:00.000-07:00

super cramped face

zigzagwalkshome withamorningfullofmsges
imisstsr.
and gerald popped by haha so funny la!

n there is comex

all i can taste is champagne
when it hits the brain like cocaine

2008-08-27T02:26:00.000-07:00

snap out of it 101.
found the right doctor right medications right everydamnthing and hopefully everydamnthing goes well at last a spark of recovery. Got served; she fell hard all over the place, but she pulls back together discovering the core of strength within herself that she survived through all the hurt. she caused all this upon herself, taking it like a pinch of salt.

the day i went to change my dressing, look at that disgusting driedupblood.
Gd bye rotten times.

2008-08-24T21:46:00.000-07:00

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don't love him, winter just wasn't my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to critisize,
hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track,we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Woah breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
These mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
inside of me, threatening the life they belong to
And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
oh breathe, just breathe.

bloodyart.